I don't know why we have angry days, but we do. At least I do. A day that's just ordinary, yet one little thing can send you over the edge into Grumpdom. Or maybe it's a whole bunch of little things piling up and that last little thing is the proverbial straw. That is me today. I'm generally a positive person; my cup is half-full and I tend to see the good in every situation. But some days I feel like Charlie Brown on the pitcher's mound and it is raining on my head. Thankfully, those days don't come very often. But I've had two days in a row of visiting the land of Grumpdom and I'm ready to visit a happier place.
I could list you off everything that's been irritating me, but that won't solve anything. Let's just say that today I am looking forward to the day the Hubs and I are empty-nesters and retired. Work is for the birds. It seems that whenever I have a deadline (like today) and I'm behind in my work (like today), I procrastinate and waste time. Which reminds me, I still have a counter full of dirty dishes from supper...
I'm also an emotional eater and tonight I want to drown my mood in a big bag of chips. Number One is getting married in January so I have to watch my waistline. There is a reason I no longer buy snacks and hide them in secret stashes, although when those moments come and I'm looking for a secret stash long forgotten and it is not found, I'm angry for having willpower at the grocery store not to buy such snacks. Doesn't make much sense, I know.
So it's time to turn this frown upside-down. I am choosing to be happy whether I want to be or not. "For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, saith the Lord, thoughts of peace, and not of evil, to give you an expected end." (Isaiah 29:11) An expected end. That truly is a comforting thought - nothing lasts forever, there will be an end. I just need to be patient and put my trust in God that there will be an end to this mood soon. "Then shall ye call upon me, and ye shall go and pray unto me, and I will hearken unto you. And ye shall seek me, and find me, when ye shall search for me with all your heart." (Isaiah 29:12-13) It brings me a sense of peace to know that whenever I call upon God with all my heart (for he wants all of me, not just part of me), He will hear and answer my prayers. Not always the answers I want, but He loves me and He knows what's best. God is good all the time.
